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I don't feel like i can ever be truly happy.
Im always alone, and I cant seem to keep friends.
the only times im happy is when im not alone, and thats rare.
I want to reach out to the friends I have but my brain wont let me.
cos I'll just drive them away.like everyone else.
I hate my job, I hate where I live and im not strong enough to change that.
and I dont have the money to do so.
I hate the way i look to a point of Frustration
today when i was walking home from work i considering getting into my car and driving into the school to try and end my life.
like im doing fine, Im getting more work so Im able to save up more money and im going back to school
but it just feels like my life is falling apart
I have no hobbies and nothing to do outside of work except being lonely
im just so tired of being lonely
Im always alone, and I cant seem to keep friends.
the only times im happy is when im not alone, and thats rare.
I want to reach out to the friends I have but my brain wont let me.
cos I'll just drive them away.like everyone else.
I hate my job, I hate where I live and im not strong enough to change that.
and I dont have the money to do so.
I hate the way i look to a point of Frustration
today when i was walking home from work i considering getting into my car and driving into the school to try and end my life.
like im doing fine, Im getting more work so Im able to save up more money and im going back to school
but it just feels like my life is falling apart
I have no hobbies and nothing to do outside of work except being lonely
im just so tired of being lonely
OC list Redo 2017
here I am going to list my oc's from these list
Just having a list and picture Reference of the character
n relastionship info in such
Single and might mingle
= siblings
= DEAD
Naruto:
1.Oredis Uchiha
2.Kishala Mika
3.Yulia Niji
4. Reik Hatake
5. Misty May
6. Crystal Goldstein
7. Ruby Tanaka (Mika)
8. Trina Mika
9.Tsubasa Niji,10.Sayake Niji ,11.Azami Niji,12.Ruka Niji
13.Hitomi Kazuma
14.Melody Kasuma
15. Hope Elise Muragasi
16. Rena Goldstein
half mine: (basically I need to design my Eugenes oc's .....)
17. Dustin
18. Drace (Trina's bf )
19. Oni
20. Ryu
21. Ashen
Hetalia: oh boy...
(Im going
plan'
in late August to early September I'm going to be in Minnesota.
going to have some fun with my friends, larping at the world event over the weekend i'm there.
when i come back im going to work hard and try to stay focused on saving up as much as i can, and try my best to finish my school work
try to also exercise and live as healthy as i can. try to take proper care of myself.
On February 14th 2018, yes Valentines day.
I'll be quitting my job.
hopefully ill have found all the info i need to move to Denmark at that point.
and hopefully it wont be hard to get a job there while i get through the education I want.
and when that is don
Tablet Help ?
so I have a Manhattan Tablet and no matter what i do I cant get smooth lines on paint tool sai,
I get them on the screen feature but not on my drawing program ,
ive look at a few tutorials that are supposed to fix this , tho i dont have the options that are shown in said tutorials
I have a windows 10. and this is very frustrating
help
for the last year I have felt like a target,
every time i walk down town or go inside the bus i look around me.
i don't feel safe walking the streets in my country.
Iceland is one of the safest places but i felt more secure in Chicago
the place where i was forbidden to go outside the airport without someone i trusted.
cos Chicago is supposed to be this bad and dangerous place,
I felt safer there than my own country.
I cant even go to my mom's house without panicking. i'm terrified
i probably shouldn't but everyday i try and find distraction cause when i get bored i get upset
i try and work everyday to forget the passed and to for
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You may want to set aside some money for a therapist, I personally while going through a tough time brushed aside all my friends ever said but you can't brush aside the words of a professional. It might sound typical but seriously getting professional help to at least help you learn how to feel positive or make change is incredibly useful and if you want to get better this is the first step.